I am More than My Weight
6/8/2013 1:51:45 PM
I’m trying to keep moving forward with my plans despite the fact that I haven’t really lost any weight. That’s my new thing now. I’m going to do all of the things I said I was going to do when I lost weight, whether I lost it or not. I’ve signed up for a marathon. I’ll be running the Rock n’ Roll Marathon in New Orleans on February 2nd.
I keep thinking the same thing over and over again. “Can a fat chick really run a marathon?” Well lovelies, the answer is yes. This one is going to anyway. Which leads me to my second nagging internal question “Can a fat chick really be a personal trainer?”
Ooooh that’s a can of worms right there. See, I was going to try and starve the weight off so that I could fit into the aesthetic idea of what a personal trainer should look like. Then I woke the fuck up. I am who I am. If I eat right, exercise, rest, and take care of my emotional well being, then whatever I look like is just what I look like. I may never look like the other trainers I know, but that doesn’t mean that I lack knowledge or that I don’t have something to give.
I am hoping there is a market for someone like me. I feel like I am less intimidating for someone who is severely overweight or has a disability. I don’t look perfect to some, but I am getting stronger and I work very hard. I think that for those who are only looking for aesthetics I might not be the right fit, but you never know.
I started out wanting to be a personal trainer because I thought it was the only way to keep weight off. You see, at least 98% of people who lose weight will gain it back. Some people who have gone on to work in the fitness profession have been able to keep the weight off. I decided that I would become a trainer and keep the weight I lost off too. Yeah, so that didn’t happen.
Somewhere along the way my thinking changed. I decided that I wanted to help empower people to love fitness regardless of what their bodies look like or if their new love of fitness leads to any significant weight loss. I decided that I was going to rally against dieting. Learning to eat healthy foods that you enjoy is far more beneficial than trying to lose weight.
Eat well and move because it makes you feel good is where I am now. Rest, take care of your emotional well being and have fun. If skipping a cupcake at the office party causes you worry or stress that is far more detrimental than just having one and having a good time. Live your life for more than just losing weight.
If you have any doubts or like some science to back up my rhetoric then check out gokaleo.com and read the book Health at Every Size: The Surprising Truth About Your Weight.
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Exercise, Writing and Body Exceptance
5/15/2013 6:27:56 PM
There is a blog post below, but I want to say something first. You are perfect the way you are. Right here and right now you are wonderful, capable, and you are enough. You might need to be a healthier person, but that doesn’t make what you are now wrong in any way.
If you want to be stronger and more fit then you have to realize that it is the body you have right now that will get you there. This body will be the one that takes the first step and starts doing the work. You have to embrace, love and cherish the body you have right this moment.
You also have to eat. You cannot starve yourself strong and healthy. You are going to have to eat healthy food and foods that don’t fall into what people think is healthy. Swearing off foods won’t get you very far and the best thing to do is try for balance. Sometimes you will achieve balance and sometimes you won’t. It’s all okay.
I am not a diet guru and I don’t aspire to be so for me movement is more important. I really believe that exercise and regular activity will balance your hormones, give you confidence, relieve anxiety and help you eat what you need to be healthy.
You see, if your hormones are balanced, you are confident and less anxious then you probably won’t overeat. If you do eat more than you need to maintain your weight sometimes, then the exercise helps with that too.
There is quite a bit of science out there on this stuff, but I’m not really a science writer. What I want is for you to be happy. It just seems like common sense to me to eat what makes you feel good and move your body in a way that is fun and makes you feel strong. My message is this: Love yourself and honor your body.
Now you can read my original blog post:
I really want to get my blog going again because I miss writing. I’m still determined to get in shape and become a personal trainer too, so I guess my blog is the perfect place for me. I feel bad for neglecting it for so long. I’ve probably lost all 6 of my readers and I really don’t remember how to use Google analytics anymore.
Here goes anyway. I’m going to blog everyday for now. Even if it just a short paragraph update I need to get back into the habit of writing something everyday.
Today I will talk about the new workouts I’ll be doing this week. I have a fancy gym membership that I barely use and I am certainly not taking advantage of everything I could be. I decided last week to change that.
Eating has been an interesting story as of late. I have fallen off the low carb wagon so to speak. I don’t really know that I will be getting back on it in any sort of permanent manner either.
There are so low carb foods that I love and some recipes too, but I just don’t know about doing it full time. It was frustrating and while there were things that seemed to feel better, there were definitely things that felt much worse.
My energy and stamina were even, but they were never high. I always felt just a little bit blah. I could run without hitting a wall, but I never felt the energy I had felt before while running. Life and working out all felt a little beige. There are some ups and downs in my energy from eating carbs, but that is far better than beige.